Praise God from whom all blessings flow!!!

First of all yesterday 28 years ago my wonderful husband was born and placed in his Mommy's arms. I may not always act like it but I am thankful everyday to the Lord that Ryan was born and that I get the privilege of taking this journey with him.
Before we went out last night to celebrate the birth of such a hot guy. We had to go to our first OB appointment. We saw our PERFECT little bundle !! I cried, mostly for how sorry I am for being such a brat through this whole pregnancy. Yes, I feel so so so sick ( which by the way my Dr. made me feel good when he said my sickness was extreme and not normal) but all I have done is complain. I complain about being in pain , I complain about throwing up, I complain about not being able to sleep but mostly I complain about feeling guilty for neglecting my kids and hubby. What was I thinking!! I get the privilege of getting to know another little personality that God created. God knew that I wouldn't be able to be as good of a wife and mother yet he still gave us this blessing. Does God not know better then I ? Does he not love my family more then I do? Contrary to what I was thinking God knows my family will be fine. We will make it through this time of yuck and come out on the other side with a new blessing. I still feel like crap all of the time but I no longer have a negative attitude about feeling sick and I am sorry that I ever did. I am so excited to meet our newest member and am thankful that God wanted to bless us with another baby even if we thought it was crazy!!
Okay , now about the appointment. First of all I am 12 and half weeks not 11 weeks along . Which makes way more sense as to how and when I got prego. The Dr. said that I'm not keeping enough food down( you have got to be kiddin me). The baby is fine for now but he said if I am just as sick by my next appointment we may have to think about an IV. My ultrasound was amazing the baby was moving all over. I think the Dr. was just as excited as we were. He kept saying ,"look guys, look he/she is waving. Oh , look count them 1,2,3,4,5 fingers". I sware it was the first ultrasound he had ever seen and not the third one he had done that day. I have to say though little Miss or Mr Hathaway was putting on quite the show he/she kept stick his/her tongue out.Very cute! Ryan and I desided that as long as our Dr is practicing we will not go back to homebirth. He is too unbelievable. There are a few things that are "required" at your first ob visit. Our Dr. was so laid back he let us choose what we wanted to do. Like the ultrasound for example he said, " if you will allow we will do an ultrasound today, if not we will here there precious heart beat". When it came time for the "required" exam I had this whole speech prepared for why I was against doing it. Only all I got out was," umm about the exam". He interupted and said," your not comfortable with that, sounds good to me lets not do it". We walked out of the room he turned to his nurse who was getting the exam table ready and said," ah we aren't gonna do that " The nurse looked at him like , your braking all the rules. He just smiled and said," this mom and baby are fine were moving on to more important things, lets draw blood". There were so many things he did that shocked us in a good way. When we got ready to leave he said, " I get the privilege of helping to facilitate a place where miracles are born , could I have a better job". Praise God for good God fearing Doctors. Having a good Dr or midwife makes the whole pregnancy and labor so much less stressful and so so much FUN!